Today I had college at 8-freaking-am. Today was pretty "eventful"... Here's why:

Firstly, when the clock striked 12 midnight my daddy officially turned 55. We got him this really cute and funny card and some shirts. I didnt get to wish my dad until... about 2.30pm. =S We had family dinner... Everyone on my mum's side... (mostly everyone) The food wasnt that good as compared to the previous times we had it...

Secondly at 3.30am it was a showdown between Barcelona and Liverpool. Champions League Last 16. By the final whistle... Liverpool won!!! 2-1. The irony is that Craig Bellamy and John Arne Riise scored. Bellamy tied it before half time... And Riise scored the winning goal 17 minutes before full time. I didnt get to watch the match because I had to wake up early for college and I had a late night. (maybe not too late, but I was dead tired).

Did I mention anything about it? Well the last night, we had dinner at a restaurant in Imbi... (fantastic food... Remind me to bring you there one day) After that everyone came over to my house... Everyone would be my cousins, uncles, aunties, grandma and nephews... (maternal side) And then gamble gamble... Again... the first round, I was "helping" my uncle.. The way we play Black Jack is that everyone becomes the "chong" or banker... Each will be for three rounds then passing on to the next. So first round was my uncle... He distributed the cards and then he gave me the cards to open... Then Ace and a King... fulemak!! Not bad wei... I'm good luck!!! hahahaha so he untung la! then later on my grandma was the banker, and it was troublesome for her to stand up, shuffle the cards and then distribute right, and my aunt didnt wanna do it, so I ended up helping my grandma... Funnily, I stood right next to my uncle (the one I helped win). So I distributed the cards, and Bloody Hell, he got ace and a jack... Tell me about me bringing good luck. Hahahah then later on I went to help my dad... Picked up his cards...Aiyoooo like shit... king and two... then I was like... "must love the cards" in my head. And then picked up a card... was a three then 15 only... not enough... took one more... bloody hell... SIX ah!!! 21 la!!! See see!!!! GOOD YEAR FOR HORSE!!! hahahaha So then after awhile people started leaving... not many actually. Then I had college and told my mum I was gonna go sleep... So i prepped my bed for my sleep... and it was hard to sleep with all the laughing and shouting from downstairs. After awhile, i managed to start falling asleep... then my sister comes into the room and ons the light. bloody hell.. So I just cover my head with my yummy blankie... And then before I knew it I fell asleep. Before I got into bed I set my phone alarm to 3.30am. And I got WaiKit to call me if he was going to watch the match. Ends up he doesnt call 'cause he didnt watch it... AND I slept through the alarm... Which came as a bloody huge surprise because normally, I'd wake up the INSTANT the alarm rings... (shows how dead I was). SO that was that...

Since I didnt watch the match.. Lemme give you a bias report on the match...

REDS REIGN IN SPAIN ON NIGHT OF EURO JOY

Liverpool pulled off one of the most stunning results in their proud European history as they came from behind to defeat Barcelona 2-1 in the Nou Camp on Wednesday night.

Craig Bellamy and John Arne Riise were the goalscoring heroes as the Reds took a major step towards securing a place in the last eight of this season's Champions League.

Deco had earlier given Barca the lead but a Bellamy diving header two minutes before the break levelled matters and Riise sealed a memorable victory with a well-struck shot into the roof of the net on 73 minutes.

With Alvaro Arbeloa making his full debut, the Reds started encouragingly on what is one of world football's grandest stages but they were swiftly punished when Barca stepped up a gear.

Gianluca Zambrotta raced past Steven Gerrard on the left and whipped in a cross that was clinically converted by an unmarked Deco who'd ghosted in at the far post.

Javier Saviola then shot wide and Deco went close as the reigning European Champions turned on the style and threatened to run riot.

Some resilient defending saw Liverpool weather the storm and as the interval approached they clawed their way back into the game through Bellamy.

Minutes earlier, the Welsh striker had headed a Gerrard free-kick into the side-netting but he made no mistake when Steve Finnan centered from the right.

Initially it looked as though Victor Valdes had managed to keep his effort out and Dirk Kuyt was on hand to turn home the rebound but television replays later proved it had already crossed the line.

In an end-to-end opening to the second half both goalkeepers were called upon to ensure the score remained level; Valdes saving with his legs from Gerrard and Pepe Reina twice denying Messi.

The thousands of travelling Liverpudlians who had made the trip would no doubt have settled for a 1-1 draw at this stage but they were soon dancing with delight as Riise smashed home what was to be the winning goal.

Deco curled an effort onto the post late on and Scouse nerves were frayed as four minutes of time was added on but Liverpool dealt with the pressure to deservedly hold out for a win that will live long in the memory.


Where's my source?? The Liverpool website obviously!!! hehe

Sigh... The two players, Bellamy and Riise, scored... And Bellamy went and whacked Riise with a golf club a few days earlier... ahahahaha What i told people was that the whole liverpool team needed to whack each other up with golf clubs so that they'll all score goals... hahahaha. But its just funny la... dua dua that were in the "fight" scored... the irony.

Hehe, Crouch didnt start. He only had 4 minutes to play. Keke... Anyhow... I'm happy... damn happy!!!

Oh, today was Goloka's birthday too!! We celebrated at Pizza Hut and with a Secret Recipe cake. I didnt stay long enough for the pizza because I had to go... but I had cake.. and it wasnt that great. But well it was alright. The whole Pizza Hut was filled with our "happy b'day" song to Goloka... and sailesh was being such a wuss... =P He was saying that he didnt know us.. hahaha he was embarrassed cause we were singing a birthday song to a friend... WUSS WUSS!!! =D hehehe

anyways that's my "eventful" day... oh yea!! we, A48 further maths, planned to have a BBQ "party"-slumber party (for chics) at my hse... well we'll see how things go...

alright i'm outtie..!!! there goes the first five days of CNY!! and tmrw is EVERYONE's birthday!!! yeap yeap.. .even if u werent born Feb 23rd... sixth day of CNY is everyone's b'day.. SO happy b'day!!

First day of Chinese New Year is known as "cho yat" or... "chu yi" depending on whether you're speaking Cantonese or Mandarin...

So as usual on the first day of CNY, I wake up at about 8-ish... get ready. Go pray at our altar at home... Offer my parents oranges and in return get ANG PAUS!!! so that's the first... Then we left the house at 9-ish and went to my godparents house. There I meet my godparents (no duh!) and godbrothers... AND AND XING WEI!!! My niece... She is so damn cute! I managed to carry her for awhile without her crying... John's got some pictures and I'm waiting for him to upload it... I can SO be a mother la! Then we kiddos collect ang paus from my godparents and my godbrother... (the one who works in HELP, cause he's married and Xing Wei is his daughter) So my mum gives my unmarried godbrothers angpaus (maybe thats why they arent married yet) and my niece. =D And then we talked and stuff... And I played with Xing Wei... And watched TV with my siblings and brothers (own bros and godbros included). Then after awhile we left. We went to a temple we ALWAYS go to during CNY. Prayed, talked and received ang pau from the head nun. Bought some vegetarian food. And then my parents talked awhile to the head nun... And whilst waiting for the vegetarian food to be prepared, Wevind called me... And I accidently cancelled. Not intentionally... ACCIDENTLY la!! and then I messaged him and he called back. Talked to him for awhile... And he's a smart bum... Told me his house address so I can mail him my ang paus... Grr! then after that we left the temple... And head to my grandma's house. (mum's side) Because dad's side is in Singapore and we've been going to my mum's side for as long as I can remember... You see, on the first day of CNY, my mum and I always eat vegetarian... And we've been doing that for the past few years... whilst some ate half-day vegetarian whilst some dont. So this is the first year that EVERYONE ate vegetarian... So we collected ang paus... Played a little bit of mahjong and then lunch was served... So we all ate... Then we cleaned up... After that I gave my mum RM7 as capital for her mahjong, then she lost and needed more.. So I just gave her another RM10... So in total that was RM17... She made some... And then she wanted to go use the bathroom... And so my sisters were fighting over who would take over her place... So I said, thats my money I'm taking over... because I wanted them to shut up and i wanted to play to. And to be fair... That was MY MONEY!!! I wanted to give my mum the winnings but she just left so I continued to play... I won the first three games I played... And that gave me a high... Then my grandma won... The other two kaki were my cousin, Thomas and my uncle... The game was mostly won by my grandma and me... wahahaha. So I made quite a lot of money. We kept on going and it was seronok... I played with MY money.. And I did WIN with my own effort...

Then after awhile they told us that dinner was going to be served... And I was surprised because didnt we just have lunch... But then I realised I've been "eating" at the mahjong table... (if you get what I mean) hahaha So then we played two-three rounds and then we went to eat dinner. After dinner I played three rounds, lost the first two and won the last... Then after that my brother took over... And I went to keep my money... haha. There were two tables "opened". One was the mahjong table which could only hold 4 people... And the other was the dinner table which was basically playing card games... It can hold as many as you like. hahahaha provided you have money on the table. So play play play... Once I got bored of mahjong.. I went to the cards table... Helped my uncle out... First card I opened for him.. Ace and a Queen.. SO he got paid double.. Then from then on we kinda had good luck and so-so luck.. Nothing too bad... So before I left to go watch the mahjong... He was the "banker" and he won double... wahahahaha

Then I left for home... Jacobson is bunking in my grandma's house tonight. My nephews, Gigi and Mieszko, will be in KL on Wednesday... (when I go back to college, bummer!) and well...

That's basically how my first day of CNY is... Godparents place, temple, grandma's place and home... (I really wish my granddad was around though).

Anyhow... its a good day... I made money... exclude the ang paus and I'm bloody proud... hehehe =D

Second Day of CNY... i think I might be doing my maths work.. haha Supposed to do some today... maybe after I shower...

Toodles... I'm gonna shower...

Gong Xi Fa Chai... And Happy Chinese New Year... May the year of the boar bring you and your loved ones luck, wealth, health and prosperity!!

Well I was thinking that I would be able to have a break on Chinese New Year. Two days (exclude weekends) would be fantastic... Its a little short but it would be great since.. All I've actually been doing is work work work! Although I'm not as hardworking as my classmates, but I do get things done... Eventually... Well I thought I would have a break.. But...

As things are going, I'm guessing not. In this week alone, we, the Further Maths class of A48, have finished three chapters. And possibly four... If tomorrow we accelerate... Well no need accelerate, just keep up the pace. 'Cause we're already half way through. Then after that, there's one chapter to go for FP1 after CNY! Damn is that bloody fast or what? Maybe not as fast as C1 and C2, but I'm telling you its fast for FP1. In just two weeks alone we've finished everything except the LAST chapter... So its considered damn fast ok. And I've got piles of Maths questions to do... yipeee.. sigh! No CNY for me... Maybe on the first day when I go to my grandma's place I'll bring along my work... I dont really have a choice. And since we're gonna go back on Wednesday, there's guaranteed more work... So better get most, if not ALL, done.

Haiz, I've put on weight. Or at least I think so... And I hate it!!! I wanna starve myself for the next few days... I dont know la, I feel like I've put on weight.. And I dont like the feeling... so.. heart pain ah.. GRRR!

OK OK! JacQ is gonna go on a serious diet... Diet means eating carefully... And with that I mean... my normal habit... Skipping lunch... because I've pretty much been trained since school days. So I do eat lunch, it will be to a minimum. Dinner will be light, even if I go out for dinners. Breakfasts will be healthy. And any chance I get, I'll eat a salad for a meal... Yes yes. I need to stick to it. GRRRR!!!

Okies, Life made Simple... hehehe

I'm sincere. I'm not gonna diss Valentine's Day just because I got no date... And that is BY CHOICE! Yea sure, there are guys who asked me... But its my choice to reject. I'm not evil or anything I just have things planned, and I honestly cant be bothered to go on dates... If you still dont get it.... Just accept that I'm on a "recovery period", which isnt true at all. So yea, I just dont fancy all this Valentine's Day thing.

In college today, people were walking hand in hand with each other. Ladies were holding chocolates or flowers... And JACQ was holding books!! Whoopeedooo! hahaha Honestly, I find it a bloody normal day. Minus the fact that certain people were asking if I had Valentine dates... Because normally on normal days, people dont ask. So yea... You get my drift.

I dont need any chocolate from any guys... Because my house's fridge is full of choc. We keep buying but never really finishing it. LOL! My daddy returned from Germany... And he bought Kit Kat... and Tolberone. The TOLBERONE are MINI and damn cute... so there's this BIG pack and tiny tolberones inside... Mixed.. Its really cute.. and the pack is like gold and there's this hole thing at the top. So when I went to get some last night, I was carrying it like a shopping bag. And it was ULTRA cute! hehe. The Kit Kat my daddy bought was kinda the same as the ones we get here, except... its a little bit sweeter... And a hella load more finer. There's a thicker layer of chocolate. Sometimes the Kit Kat we find in M'sia, the layer of chocolate is so thin that sometimes you can see the wafer. So yea.. and there was... i forgot what its called..

So Louis Vuitton?? Hahaha, my dad DID buy me something. Its this really cute handbag... its in the pictures... but lazy to point out which one. It happens that everyone got something. Including John! Johnny, want a handbag? keke.. He got a wallet. ngo em sa tak yong ah... its sooo... you can literally SMELL the leather from a distance... god its nice... so we'll see how things go and I may use it for CNY.. or I'd just keep it in my mummy's safe keeping. =D *no we are NOT spoilt brats* When my dad told me the approximated price for my bag.. I nearly fainted... I was like.. omg, please next time give me the money... And when my dad told me the price he paid for my mum's... in fucking EUROS!!! ($$$) I really wanted to die... god!!! You can buy... so many phones with that.. or computerSSS!! daddy daddy, next time please just give me the money.. =D hahaha

So yea, its a normal day for me.


Hope its something special... if not, make it special... because I am.. I'm going out to dinner with family XD

Out of context but also part of it... There's this restaurant... A buffet restaurant in New Zealand called Valentine's. Its very good actually... I remember we ate there before... How many times? I'm not exactly sure... Its either once or twice... most probably once.

Well there's no Valentine's mood. There's no CNY mood. At least there's Louis Vuitton Mood eh?

Here's What I MEAN!!!!






Hmm, wondering if they are fake eh?? Hahahaha... Lemme tell you the story.

My dad went to Frankfurt, Germany a few days back... For this business exhibition that he attends yearly. He was actually supposed to come back tmrw, Valentine's Day, but he changed his flight and managed to get an earlier flight back... Well they'd (the airport counter ppl) would give him whatever he requested cause he spent shit loads on First Class tickets... Kiasu-ness.. =P.

So he returned today and I was not aware of it because... noone told me and I thought it was tmrw. So after college, I went to FIS to collect some stuff, which couldnt be collected today because it was not ready... So whilst waiting for my siblings to finish school, I sat in the car and did some Bio work... *proud no?* Then my sisters and bro finished and we had a sort of little debate in the car on when my dad's coming home. And I nicknamed someone Moo-Moo, because my sis suspects he likes me *rolls eyes* Then upon reaching home. My sister sees my dad's shoes... And we start to wonder whether he reached home. His Merc was not at home. So we went inside and saw my daddy's luggage... Meaning he returned home... His luggage is UNPACKED.... except for the Louis Vuitton carrier bags... I'm not sure how many there was but there certainly was more than 3... So my sister, Julz, and I was like... hmmm, interesting. Well it was ONLY the carrier bags as in paper bags... So then after awhile my mum came home and then she said something "Don't touch the things in my room ah" and then to that I replied, "You mean the Louis Vuitton?". And she asked, "How you know? You saw?" to which I replied, "No la, see the paper bags there"... Then she diam diam... hahahaha

Well maybe its my dad's Valentine's gift to my mum... for... after all these years? I dont know. Well its really sweet. And before my dad left for Germany.. Like a few weeks earlier... He had a meeting with someone from Marriott... (I blogged about it... The stroll in BB, or something like that). Then after that my dad had another meeting with this woman. So then my mum suggested we go shopping.. And I tembak.. OK la... Then I forgot how this topic came out.. But then my mum was saying stuff about going to Louis Vuitton... because they have a huge outlet at Starhill... which is right next to Marriott. So then I backed my mum and told her that we'd go and then after that my dad would come and swipe the credit card.... or cards... hahahaha

So I find it pretty sweet. But I'm sure its not for me to touch.. to admire... but i want I want.. the cute little bag... Grrr!!!

Anyway, I've got no Valentine's and well... just a normal day tmrw for me. =D *unless YOU wanna make it special*

Random thoughts have been flooding my mind today. Would you make a difference in my life if you knew that my life is ending? If lets say I didnt know, would you tell me? Would you start talking to me more? Would things change?

'Cause if someone I knew was caught in that situation... I'd know my answers to those questions. I'd tell the person. I'd make a difference in their life. I'd make things better. I'd get to know this someone... At least when he/she goes, I'd know that I had an impact on their life. I'd know that I tried my best to give him/her the best time of their life whilst they were around.

Now I just start to wonder... Would the people around me make a difference? Maybe not something so significant. Maybe just letting me know that I'll always be in their hearts... You know something meaningful. That'd be enough. Because I'm happy with life. Maybe not to the fullest, but I'm happy. And I know that I can leave this world knowing that my family will always have a special place for me in their hearts. The choices I make may not make my family proud or happy. But they'll come around and support me. Thats whats so great about my family. People that I cannot live without. I may not need a guy, but I am for sure that I need my family. Parents, Brothers and Sisters.

I wonder... If I had cancer... and I was given about 6months to live. Would those 6 months be the longest in my life, or the shortest? Would I dread the end of the 6 months or would I be in between?

These things got me thinking because I know that one of these days, I'm gonna lose someone. And that feeling just sucks.

What made things stupider today is that I went out with my mum to my godparent's place (thats the good part) but on the radio news, it kept announcing that Chelsea and ManU won, whilst Liverpool lost... sigh, I really dont know what to say. I didnt watch the match... not cause I've given up hope on Liverpool.. No no NO! I was just too tired. I spent almost the whole day finishing up my work... And I was supposed to complete more today... But I just didnt really find the time.

Well I guess I'll get some done now... And so... I'm out. bleh! Mood swings =.=" hahaha =P

Hmm, CNY is a few days away... Less than a week. In about 6days, John will come home. My dad will return from Frankfurt, Germany on Valentine's Day... Speaking of which, Valentine's Day is on Wednesday. Its not a big deal for me because I never ever had a special day out on Valentine's anyway. Because before it was always school and then I just couldnt be bothered and I'm single... And I dont enjoy Valentine's Day anyway. I rather Chinese New Year.

This Chinese New Year... I didnt really go shopping. My mum thinks that the shops would slash their prices after the first day... Which I'm sure wont happen... And that irritates me like hell because I wanna go shopping. She keeps saying that we'll only buy clothes for the first day and then second day we'll go shopping. And she's being a hypocrite because she bought TONNES of clothes. Bleh! And I just know that something will come up and we wont go shopping either way. Its pissing off. As usual. But I gotta deal with it. And its bloody irritating because my lil bro has tonnes of clothes too. And my lil sister too... But Julz doesnt have any but she'll get hers before CNY (probably tmrw). And my mum keeps buying clothes for John... And I'm left with one skirt and one top... Well another two tops my godmother bought for me so thats not REALLY counted. But its annoying because I saw sooo many things that I wanted... But felt bad cause it did cost quite a bit and then... sigh. My mum said that I already have something so wait until the second day of CNY because thats when they'll slash the price... But we wont go anyway.... EESSSHHH!!! Ahhh screw it, the more I talk about it the more it annoys the crap outta me.

College college... Havent really mentioned much except its tiring and that I'll be working my BUTT off yea? Well, lecturers are pretty good this sem. Further Maths I've got a good lecturer, Mr Khoo. Funny guy and well really interesting. He doesnt spoon feed you. Like we're given our homework and then questions we dont know, he wont show the full solution. He'll explain and then move on. If we dont get it he'll explain again and when we get it... done la. He's good. Happy!! We're speeding through Further Maths, which scared me... But with Mr Khoo its good cause he makes sure you understands stuff. And sometimes he makes you think... And make mistakes then he'll correct you with a joke or something. he's really fun. =D Stats same as last semester. Ms Aw. FANTASTIC! uh-huh. Wai Kit told me that she's good and I absolutely AGREE. =D Hmm, Bio I've got Ronnie... He's not bad. He doesnt really feed you notes. He'll give you notes. But he doesnt go through it first. He'll explain things and then we're to recall whatever he says and fill in the key words thats left out of his notes. Which I think is a pretty good thing because the more times you see stuff the better you remember right? Well in class I see it twice. And when I get home I make notes from the explanation he gives in class and from textbook. So hopefully things gets into my head after 3 times. But no complains so far. I dont really miss the Bird =P 'cause, I didnt really like his way of teaching. the lights off and stuff... Sorry not my style.. I'd feel like sleeping. =P And we're left with Physics... Hmm, Mr Lim.. I think.. (eeks, such a horrible student no?) Well he's supposingly Mr Lee's student. But he's pretty weird.. But kinda alright. At least he explains things in details. And I do get it. But sometimes I just feel sleepy. And the way he talks, well makes me laugh but I think i've gotten used to it. I do think that he'll help me get my results.

Well overall, second semester's lecturers are good. I'm happy.

My friends in college find me... "quiet" but then... come to think of it, I am quieter in college. Well in school it was always dependent on my mood (too much stats... whether one thing is dependent or independent on something, grrr!). In college, I'm just a little bit quiet most times. I guess its just the way I am now. Serious and Hardworking. HAHAHAHA Who am I kidding. Maybe a little more serious and hardworking compared to last year... Which I still think is my whole transitiong stage thing. Well anyway.. Life's good. at least for now.

I run for hope. I run to feel. I run for the truth for all thats real. I run for your mother, your sister, your wife. I run for life.

I pray hard for everyone's well-being. I pray for myself. I pray that my grandma recovers. I really dont want her to suffer anymore. It stabs my heart to hear about the things she's going through. I wished I was in her place and she didnt have to feel the pain. I really run for hope.

You may not know, but I really wish your life is good. Dont be depressed. If your sick you cannot help it. But you can choose to be depressed or not. Its your life, Your choices. Why choose depression? I really hope you people snap outta it. Because its not funny anymore. But at the end of the day, its your life. and its YOUR choice. If you can do something right for yourself, why'd you want to ruin the chance? Think things through. I'd always be around to help you guys. =)

Well... I'm off now. Depression is out the window. Its ok to feel happy because you never know when that feeling with disintergrate into thin air. Think about it.

I'm back to where I started when college started. Which means I'm back to being HARDWORKING! Hahaha, like doing all the questions (maybe skipping a few because its very repeatitive). I knowwww!! Its not the 100% me to be THIS hardworking. There was always a free Jacq that can still relax whilst there was work to do or at least relax whilst doing work... But not anymore, at least for the moment. Hahaha. Well well whatever la. Work my butt off and then hope results shows something good. Grrr

Liverpool VS Newcastle.. I dont know whether to watch or what... I cant bear another draw or defeat.... Still saying that Everton are cowards... with that bloody 1-9-1 line up... AHHH!! Bunuh 'em. Pening kepala la...

Remember how confusing kepala and kelapa was? (Kepala = head, Kelapa = coconut) I dont know if everyone out there found it confusing but there was once I failed my BM exam because of that. Stupid huh? Well yea... I wrote something like "Kepala dari pokok itu jatuh ke kelapa dia. Dia terpaksa pergi ke hospital kerana kelapanya berdarah." Sigh!!! STUPID!!! Well that was the FIRST time I failed a BM exam... and the last. Uh-huh and then from then on I started to do better and wahahahaha, finally aced it. I managed to get exempted from Bahasa Kebangsaan in LAN, whereas John didnt get to. WHY? hahaha because the policy changed and I smart la. I mean, I am smart... But not book smart like I'm not a nerd. I wont read and memorise. If I get it, I do... If I dont, read til I do... Sometimes i just dont have the patience and give up anyway...

I am not exactly a VERY patient person. I do not have patience... But that all changes. It all depends on the person I'm dealing with. Normally I would, but once that person starts to annoy me... it snaps... AND sometimes (most times) I just lash out at a person. Be it the person who annoyed me or not. Normally if its the person who did annoy me... they'd get even worse words from my mouth. You see, when I get annoyed/pissed... And when it shows that I wanna be alone... LEAVE ME ALONE!!! If not I'd just lash out at you... And for one day (or a few days) not feel guilty. Sometimes I say sorry, most times I dont. WARNING! Do Not Tick Me Off. I have no tolerance for people who do.

My condolences to Anna Nicole Smith. Some of you may have heard or may not have known. Anna Nicole Smith, the voluptuous former Playboy centerfold who married an octogenarian billionaire and waged a legal battle for his fortune all the way to the Supreme Court, died Thursday after collapsing at a hotel in Florida. She was 39. Her sudden death bore an eerie parallel to the demise of Smith's personal idol, screen legend Marilyn Monroe, who died in 1962 at age 36. Like Monroe, Smith rose from a troubled background to gain worldwide fame as a sex symbol. Its well... pity.

This is a song that I love. Its written and performed by a breast cancer survivor. Rocker Melissa Etheridge. Its a song that is so... I dont know how to explain. Anyway here's the lyrics because its just a bloody good song.

Melissa Etheridge - I Run For Life

It's been years since they told her about it
The darkness her body possessed
And the scars are still there in the mirror 
Every day that she gets herself dressed
Though the pain is miles and miles behind her
And the fear is now a docile beast,
If you ask her why she is still running,
She'll tell you it makes her complete

I run for hope, I run to feel 
I run for the truth for all that is real 
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife 
I run for you and me my friend 
I run life 

It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken its toll
And they cut into my skin
And they cut into my body 
But they will never get a piece of my soul 

And now I'm still learning a lesson
To awake when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for her soul

I run for hope, I run to feel
I run for the truth for all that is real
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife
I run for you and me my friend
I run life

And someday if they tell you about it
If the darkness knocks on your door 
Remember her, remember me 
We will be running as we have before 
Running for answers, running for more 

I run for hope, I run to feel
I run for the truth, for all that is real
I run for your mother, your sister, your wife
I run for you and me my friend

I run for hope, I run to feel
I run for the truth, for all that is real
I run for your mother, your sister, your daughter, your wife
For you and me my friend
I run for life 

I run for your mother, your sister, your wife
I run for you and me my friend
I run for life

People run not to run away from their problems. Although that is what MOST people do. But some of us just run to find answers. To make ourselves complete. For Hope. To Feel. For The Truth. Something that is ultra hard to find nowadays... The Truth and Trust that comes along with it. Why is it so hard to find the truth? I dont know. Ask yourself. How often are you honest with yourself? How much truth is there in the world? Every little thing is swept under the carpet and unknown to the world. Countries go to war with other countries... What's the reason? Unknown right? Except to the people who thinks that they are at the top. Because they are ruling. What was the reason for the War On Iraq? Weapons of Mass Destruction right? Was there any found? Now look at the country... I'd say that US just wanted to oil, which unfortunately went to waste because of the war and ended up being blown up anyway. Stupid morons. Now with the price of oil increased, everything else increased. Sigh, only God knows that by the time I'm an adult, the cost of living would be sky high. Anyway back to the truth and trust thing... Even if we forget the big issues... Just look at our lives, how many times have you been backstabbed? How many times have you trusted someone only to realise that they backstabbed you? None? well let me warn you... Unless you're a very lucky person... prepare yourself for some major backstabbing later in life. There's stupid politics EVERYWHERE.

Kick Push. I'm out. *1st week of college and I've finished two and a half chapter for FP1* We're speeding... AGAIN!

I've managed to do my work. Maybe not ALL is up to date. But I'm nearly there. I'm not PILING up tonnes of work that I wont do. I will do it. I'm motivated... I'm focused. I will complete it.

Wah liao. Some Jacq huh? New-Once-in-awhile-Rajin JacQ Dont recognise it?? HAHAHA. Dont worry, the Old-Lazy-Bum JacQ will return come July. Thats when my 3rd semester starts and there will be a whole lot of slacking. Because for July Further Maths batches... Third semester is the most "free". Well I'll work my butt off this semester. It will end fast enough anyway, so I'm fine with working hard, at least I can say that I did work hard (and not feel guilty about it later). Hope my results will show that I worked hard.

There's stats work to do and one exercise for further maths. But I can do it tmrw during my 1hour whilst waiting for class to start. Well in fact it'll be two hours because I'll end up going to college early because my dad's gonna be driving me to college anyway. Well that's always the case with my dad. I'll be in college before the Sun is up and when all the mosquitoes are hungry. Well they always seem hungry then.

I've been having good and weird dreams... Its weird because I'm dreaming of guys in my life confessing their love for me. Which is bloody funny because I know it'll never happen because of the special relationship we already have, which wont change. But its good because then I know that they'll love me and never leave me hence not hurting me (if it comes true, which it wont anyway). I know these guys well and I know they would never ever hurt me. But we would never get together 'cause we wouldnt wanna hurt each other anyway. Well life sure is funny. "Dreams are emails from the people we love who's gone" I got that from One Tree Hill, s04e11. So I wonder if my dreams are emails from people I love who's not around anymore... In another world that better than here. But then I dont really have people I love who's past on... except my grandfathers... Whom I would REALLY REALLY wanna meet. I wanna get to know 'em. Have memories of them in my head. Make images that are blur in my head clear. My dad's father passed away when my dad was a little boy, but wouldnt it be nice if I could get a glimpse of him alive? Touch his hand and hug him. Let him know that I am his granddaughter. Let him know he has a granddaughter who appreciates his presence... My mum's father passed away when I was 3 years old. Juliana was only 1 year old then... My mum tells me that he loved us. And I believe her. I wanna relive the days when I was around my grandad, so I can feel his love. Its different - feeling and hearing. Like if my dad/mum passed away (TOUCH WOOD) when I was young , then one of 'em would tell me that he/she loves me. It'll be different... I'll know it but not know how they showed they care. Hearing it is a whole lot different from feeling it. So thank god, they're both up and about in my life. I really dont know how I'd be without 'em... Could I be independent?? I'm not entirely sure... For me, my family is my home. I wonder if my granddads are watching over me now...

There's TV to watch, computer to play, songs to download and sleep to be my true love right this instant. But there's also work to do... So I guess I'll go do more work... And let my brain, eyes and body tire out so that I can fall into a deep sleep as soon as my body hits the bed. Well sleep can wait to be my true love. I love you, sleep! =D hahaha

Who'd I want to meet: My grandfathers. Liverpool Football team. England' and Spain's football team.

Tmrw is the match between England and Spain. I wonder who I'll root for. I support both teams, both didnt really get that far in the World Cup but Spain certainly did play better football. GRRR! I cant really say who now. But I support both. So we'll see who wins. I doubt I'll watch the match, so the net/replays will be my source. Wahahha! GO ENGLAND! GO SPAIN! damnit... Ahhh, Gerrard will lead the England team... damn! But there'll be Torres and Fabregas in Spain... damn damn!! grrr! both la both!

Btw, Wrestling.. hahahahhaha Batista VS Undertaker, John Cena VS HBK in Wrestlemania 23. Something I look forward to hell loads. But before that... At No Way Out, there'll be HBK AND CENA VS Batista and Undertaker... In that match, I root for Cena and HBK! =D. In Batista VS Undertaker... UNDERTAKER!!!!! wahaha... Cena VS HBK... Whoever wins I'd be happy. =D

Going back to more maths... *time to focus*

Uh-huh that is right. Everton created a new line-up for football. Its not that I'm a sore loser and wont admit that we just drew with them... Its just that when you play football... BOTH teams wanna win. But in this case... Everton didnt wanna win nor lose. They just wanted A point. dumbasses...

Anyway I got this off a Yahoo! Answer site thing.

Everton created a new line-up... 1-9-1. Blue shite!

When you think of it, its pretty true no? 1- 9 -1... Pretty pathetic also... like to one Liverpool player in midfield or forward who has the ball, there's at least two Everton players. Its depressing that Everton doesnt wanna win nor lose. Just you know surrounding the goalposts... But no doubt, there's credit to the goalie. And they did some awesome defending too... WELL WHO THE HECK WOULDNT if you've got 9-10 players in the box?? grrrr!! so geram.

Argh!! I know I know, I did blog about it already its just that I gotta say some stuff before college!!! oh the dreaded college... Well at least its Stats first and Physics last... whoopeeedooo!

Anyway enough of the crappy football that was played... Enough of stressing over Crouch's inability... Enough of FOOTBALL (for now that is). Its college time... woohooo Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I start at 10am... wahahha. Anyhow... time to go... Stupid EVERTON!!! grrr

Labels: Football, Liverpool FC

I send my condolences to....

Myself.

Its nearly the end of the world for me... I feel it...

Not literally, although it could be. I dont know. My mind's all over the place... After 90 minutes (exclude extra time) of stressing in front of the TV. And slapping myself awake for chicken leg's stupid moves... I guess its better if you just stab my heart. Its a hella load better if I bleed for you. At least then, I can paint the town Red!

I know, its so damn dramatic right? Well after the Liverpool - Everton match... (this is EXACTLY what I told WK) My heart dropped... Tears in my eyes... Depression mode on. Kill me!

Why do I say this?? Liverpool played well (a little better than the previous clash with Everton). That's the whole problem. We should have shot those goals... We should have broken that defence... The number of chances we had.... ARGH!!! Everton had a bloody thick blue line at defence. Which I say is impressive... But when Liverpool broke that line once or twice they should have netted those goals... ARGH!! Credit to Everton's defence and Howard, the keeper...

No credit given to Crouch at fucking all! He shouldn't have played. I'm telling you its a mistake to play all three in front - Kuyt, Bellamy and Crouch aka Kaki Ayam. Why? BECAUSE THEY DONT BLEND!!! Its either Kuyt and Bellamy or Kuyt and Crouch. NEVER NEVER EVER Crouch, Kuyt AND Bellamy. NEVER Crouch and Bellamy... even though opposites attract... In Liverpool, Bellamy (short and fast) and Crouch (tall and slow) DO NOT COMPLIMENT EACH OTHER!!! STUPID STUPID!!! Kuyt and Bellamy is definitely a good combo ' cause they are both fast, they both open up space for Gerrard to power the shots in... AND they themselves power the shots in. Kuyt and Crouch is so-so because Kuyt opens up space for Crouch and Gerrard... and this creates problems for the defence line... WHAT WAS WRONG WITH BENITEZ!!?!?! GODDAMNIT!

Now, time to degrade Liverpool players because I feel they didnt do enough...

CROUCH!!! I'd kill him at this point. The number of chances... sigh!! and why was he falling down so much?? god damn it... STAND UP. eessssssh! and aiyooo, i just cant stand him. I once thought he was the IT striker after Cisse left on a loan... But ever since Kuyt came in... Out you go Crouch... he doesnt do well with balls... no dirty minds here PLEASE! Crouch got no pace.. He cant run... geez.

Alonso's been sleeping... and god was that nerve wrecking in the 59th minute.. that slip nearly cost us... Thank god for the save...

thats about it... the players that i'm not exactly too upbeat about... but Gerrard would have come forward more if not for the feckin' defence.

I cried not because we drew. I cried because it was something we deserved badly... and it just happened.

Haiz... I've lost the mood to babble on.

Well whatever happens.. I'm a Liverpudlian... It'll stay that way even if we fail to get any Cups this season.... I'd just say "It wasnt our season". REDS for life!

Labels: Liverpool FC

The background music for the Nokia 5300 ad.... I know it...

wahahahahaha..

Daft Punk - Digital Love... =D

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

College is about to start. Oh no! I'm gonna have to register for my May/June A-levels exams... OH NO! Results are coming out soon (John's B'day)... OH NO!!!!!!! more like OH SHIT!!

This aint good huh? Well lets hope some good things come out of it all. *breathe*

I slouched on the couch today.. Watching the replay of all the goals in the EPL and other football matches... But nothing hits me like Liverpool's goals. Whenever there's a Liverpool goal, chills just run down my spine. (and in a good way) Its like wow! And watching replays, eventhough I've watched the match... I'm telling you its incredible, remarkable, just simply put.. .WOW!


While watching the replays of the Liverpool VS West Ham goals... Some thoughts striked me... I'm thinking of having a tatoo done... Uh-huh. That logo. where? hip... because thats where I can hide it. HAHAHA... But it'll take me some time to build the guts and courage to go have a tatoo done... Its scary ok... But I will have one somewhere... someday. Hehehe. But we'll still see how things go... =S

I dont really have much to say except to rattle on about college starting. I feel like I havent been schooling for like... 6months or so. But in fact its only been 1-2 months... exclude studying for exams... Sigh at least I wont have to wake up when the sun isnt up most days of the week. sad sad...

Its so sad that I'm scouting for Unis now... I havent even sat my second external exam. But I guess sometimes you just have to do what you have to do. Grrr! I'm currently looking for Twinning courses for Accounting.. (boring shit? i guess not really) preferbably a twinning course with University of Liverpool. I swear it is for STUDY sake... (and maybe other motives as well =P) But come on, if I do get accepted into a UK Uni I'd be proud. But then it would cost my parents A LOT to fund my studies in the UK. Sigh. But I'm thinking of working during my breaks to get some cash so that my parents dont spend shit loads of money... I could fund some things like food, you know... =P

Well enough about Uni.. concentrate on college first right? Bleh! I'm screwed...

For now, I dont really have anything to say...

btw, anyone know the Nokie 5300 ad?? What's the song?? its so damn cute.. hahahah XD