My voice, Contradictions - Life!

Friday, November 06, 2009

A story to be told...

Just now, about 10-20 minutes ago, I randomly wrote a wall post on my sister's FB, "btw, I'll be coming home tmrw". Then I decided "hey, why not?"

So I called my wonderful mum and told her about my 5-day weekend and immediately she said "COME HOME LAH! Why didn't you come home TODAY!?" So I told her that I was doing my work. So she said, "come home tomorrow then!" After much discussion, we decided that I would go back home tomorrow. She said she'll change my ticket etc and get back to me. In less than a minute, my aunt calls and tells me that I can call SIA and change my flight on my own. So I do. I get SIA's number, looks at the schedule and called SIA. The usual routine, press 1 for English, press 2 for Chinese bla bla bla... Keyed in the necessary yada yada...

"Please note that we may record your call for evaluation purposes. Please hold while we connect you to one of our customer service staff"

So I hold...

"All our customer service staffs are busy at the moment, please hold and we will attend to you shortly"

"Due to high volume of calls we are unable to attend to you. You may choose to leave a voicemail or ..."

*hangs up*

I call mum and she says she'll call me back. So I wait and shortly after she calls me. In that short span of time, I start feeling guilty about going home and I know I won't study and will be fed loads of good food *tempting eh?* So when mum calls, I tell her my guilts and she says... "well, ok. Just make sure you study ok?" and obviously I'll say, "yes mummy". She did sound slightly disappointed.

*ARGH!* If this was a year ago... EXACTLY a year ago I'd already be in KL... *sighhhh*

So yes, all that happened VERY fast. In less than 10 minutes.

Well, long weekend = study like mad, slack time, sleep late, wake up late, and good food this weekend.

Hahahaha. Alright. time to get back to tutorials and back to HIMYM xD

At least staying back this time around won't be so boring.

I love you! (so so much)

Labels: Home

posted by The Guilty Princess at 6:02 PM

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

This is too good an opportunity to not blog about.

Julz and I were talking. And apparently I'm so sad that she wants to come down to SG and teman me. And to make myself happy again - we will go shopping. So this is how it went down with the parents. (according to her, of course)

ask dad cause mum's not around.
J: Dad, can I go to spore?
Meng: For what?
J: Want to visit jie2.
Meng: *looks at me*...
J: jie2 is sad!
Meng: WHY?
J: i dont know. please can i go?
Meng: cannot cannot u got hw to do.
J: *fights back* PLEASE! bel and boy also had hw PLEASE!!!
MEng: *walks out/away*

sigh.. then i asked mum.

J: Can i go to singapore?
Hua: WHY?
J: I want to visit jie2. i miss her and she miss me.
Hua: like that want to go.
J: Please
Hua: *ignores and walks out/away*

sigh.. so how? hahaha..
and mum's was faster.. hahaha
not like dad. sighh

BUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA her exact words!

Maybe all I really need is a dose of HOME instead of anything else.

*study time*

Labels: Family, Funnies

posted by The Guilty Princess at 6:32 PM

Friday, October 30, 2009

Ok I said I won't blog.. I'm not i'm just testing this app for my iPhone! *woot!* there's an app for Blogger!

Alright testing a few features and I'm gonna head to John's n see the 'surprise' he has for me

Damn I love him!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

posted by The Guilty Princess at 9:29 PM

Thursday, October 29, 2009

I vow to love, treasure,

I'm not writing a wedding vow. Eeeeeeeee. 5 years... NO! 10! Whatever!

I'm shutting this down.

I won't CLOSE it and limit access... I just won't blog. I promise myself. I swear! (Unless something MAJOR happens then I am ALLOWED to blog) I will not blog until after my second last paper... Astronomy. Last paper can... screw me for all I care. Bleuk!

ANYWAYS, since I'm being so kind and not closing this from the public yada yada, you can go entertain yourself with older posts. There are 1,101 posts (including this) to read.

hahahaaha.

Enjoy!

And good luck to me! (remembering this time last semester...)

(chat box still open btw, and i will reply... after days :P)

posted by The Guilty Princess at 1:02 PM

How far is heaven

Monday, October 26, 2009

My apologies for the lack of interesting posts.

And I apologize for the future because exams are less than a month away and I will not be blogging... hopefully.

Busy running here and there. Completing assignments and catching deadlines. I'm tired and my body is of no help. I'm worn out - especially this week... stupid female organs.

One more CA (continuous assessment), one more written assignment, and one more presentation to go and I can really sit down and start studying for exams, which by the way is not a lot of time. Its so stupiddddd. All the deadlines are a week before exams. FML!

OK, definitely not interesting!

Anyway, I've gotta call mum more. She's emo-ing me because I don't call her like every day. HAHAHAHAHA! I did that first sem and beginning of second sem because... I just totally hated the place and was always alone in my room crying at the amount of workload and lousy bed. Oh well, no one will really know the real story as to why I hated NTU so much, why I wanted to head back home so much. Probably not even myself. Hahaha.

Anyhooo, I had a relaxing weekend. Yay! Even though I wasn't supposed to relax, but things happened for a reason. At least I completed the work I wanted to complete. =) Pat's friend, Tysern came down from KL so we brought him to eat, with some of the NTU-ians who were Pat's high school mates. I really don't know how to link it all. ANYWAY, bottom line, we went to eat. Spent 32 on a meal... :S and I'm not gonna spend so much this week. Yeah, its all about giving and saving. *lame*

I'm boring you. No pics because I'm too lazy to bring out my camera.

OOoooooooo, you people must try the Marmalade Pantry at Orchard. I know they have an outlet in ION Orchard. I went there the week before last with Patrick and his sister. The food is nyum nyum. The crabmeat linguini - I had that.... however, I find that what Pat's sister had was so much nicer - the risoto. And Pat had.... i don't know what chicken - but it was really nice. Unique! And we had a cake after that... Creamy coconut don't know what cake. IT WAS GOOD!!! I didn't take pics, and didn't take mental notes on the things we ate. errr... Shy la! haahaahahaha. Anyway check out the place. Food's good. price.... errmmm not a daily/weekly thing. :P

Okie dokie, time for Astronomy. Le sigh. Shouldn't be THAT hard to memorize... right?

dumbass bel who thinks I'm so free:
love ur spongebob starfish very much muah!

=.= time for stress overload. toddles!

Labels: NTU, Random Blabbering, Rantings

posted by The Guilty Princess at 7:04 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Hey baby,

Its been...

months

What a roller coaster ride it has been eh? More high flying than low dips :) I'm just grateful that everytime there are uncertainties, doubts and tears, you are there for me.

Happiness is just outside my window,
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking,
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow,
Let it be, you can't make it come or go,
But you are gone - not for good but for now,
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good.

Happiness is like the old man told me,
Look for it, but you'll never find it all,
But let it go, live your life and leave it,
Then one day, wake up and she'll be home
Home, home, home...

Happiness, The Fray

I guess I never told you, how really happy you make me. How happy I am that you're mine.

Thank you for giving me the chance on 7th March. Thank you for helping me win that printer on 21st March. Thank you for the Royce chocs on 27th March.

"nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard
oh, take me back to the start"

the stupid boy

I still have that btw :)

Thanks for attracting the cat so it jumped on the chair in the pantry on 2nd April. Thank you for rocking out with me on 5th April. Thank you for the very first time at ADM on 10th April. Thank you for that Ben & Jerry on 11th April (I remember now what I "emo-ed" about). Thank you for that message on 12th April ("When one door closes, another of happiness opens and that door is you"). Thank you for speeding with the tandem bikes and making me scream at ECP on 24th April. Thank you for helping me move my things, accompanying me to watch Friday the 13th (even though you HATE horror) on 27th April. Thank you for meeting me at the airport and accompanying me til I had to pass through immigration if not I'd miss my flight on 28th April.

Thank you for encouraging me throughout the whole time I had driving. Thank you for Angels and Demon on 12th May. Thank you for that crazy rendezvous (our 3rd first hahahahaha!) at Genting on 13th May. Thank you for BBQ-ing, walking/running my dogs, and that night at my place on 15th May. Thank you for introducing the fish head noodles at Taman Desa Danau on 16th May. Thank you for driving Julz and I out to MV/Gardens on 21st May. Thank you for being so sexy and hot on your surprise party and taking an awesome pic with me on 30th May.

Thank you for my (surprise!!!) birthday present when the clock struck 12, the cake, accompanying me for dinner with my family on 1st June. Thank you for the top from Bali on 8th June. Thank you for 19th and 20th June - you know ;).

Thank you for making me laugh with "have you made up your mind?" on 15th July. Thank you for "you're like firefly, small cute and damn hot" en route to Singapore on 20th July. Thank you for that solo Liverpool in SG ticket on 26th July.

Thank you for all the Youtube moments. Thank you for those nights in the pantry. Thank you for taking care of me every time I'm sick. Thank you for wiping the tears away, kissing the tear tracks and kissing my forehead to put a smile back on my face. Thank you for all the Skype moments. Thank you for all the phone calls, messages and emails. Thank you for ALL your nonsense (that I so-cannot-get-enough-of). Thank you for your time, your patience, your smiles and your love.

Eventhough I'm thanking, it doesn't mean its over.

Thank you for 25th July 2009. Parkroyal. 1816. The 3 red roses. The 44 rose petals. The ROYCE!!! and the dinner at Kazu. And the very first time and night that we are together-together. =)

You recently said that 3 months passed by so fast. Well, its fast and slow. But no matter what, everyday my love just grows.

I love you baby, so much more than before.

[I know how much you hate words. hehehe, Happy Reading ;) ]

Labels: Our Story

posted by The Guilty Princess at 6:08 AM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

My siblings seriously needs to go for a Jacqueline spelling class.

They can't spell my name!!! ;(

Yeah, sure. Spell your SISTER's BOYFRIEND's name right, but not your own SISTER!

*rawrrrr!*

I'm gonna make the both of you write my name over and over again until you fill in one exercise book! Muahahahahahahahaaha!

Labels: Family, Rantings

posted by The Guilty Princess at 10:05 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

What happened after... I had McD whilst watching I love you, Beth Cooper. Funny movie to not watch in the movies - because its not worth it. But its good enough to watch. Entertaining enough. Storyline is.... so-so.

Spent time with who else, and this and that.

Woke up after lunchtime today, had lunch during tea time, and did some Co. Law reading. Headed back to room and got ready to go out. Went out and had a scrumptious dinner, headed back to NTU super sleepy and tired.

School starts again. Le sigh.

Over and out and... dead.

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:38 AM

Monday, October 19, 2009

Late nights.

Weekly assignment deadlines, presentation deadlines and CAs.

Hunger pangs (past midnight).

Odd eating habits.

Odd sleeping habits.

Tiredness.

Tutorials to complete.

This is University life. correction : Singaporean University life. LE SIGH!

1.5 years and I'm done. Dread or looking forward?

Supper-ing with him soon. Waiting for my McD.... now that's TWICE in a damn day!!! What's wrong with meeeee. ;( Last year and every year before that I only ate McD THRICE a year... now its twice in ONE day. FML!!!

Time to stock up on proper snacks for the late night hunger pangs. Exams rolling around...

Off to studyyyy. toodddddddles!

Labels: NTU, Singapore

posted by The Guilty Princess at 1:41 AM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I don't want any more drama.
I don't want any more tears.

I just wanna be truly happy. so truly happy.

My heart's twisting in knots and it hurts. I don't wanna see the people I love go. I don't want to lose them. Can't I stop time - at the happiest moment in my life. Those sweet surprises, instead of the bitter heartaches.

Mummy, I wanna go home...

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:38 AM

Saturday, October 17, 2009

When every thing you do is wrong...

You just silence yourself and hug yourself to sleep.
You don't blame anyone but yourself- because what you've done is wrong anyway.

Why do I even bother so much? Not like it's the future I've seen all along. It's all lies..

Sometimes you just don't realize how much you've hurt someone by saying something that may seem harmless.

posted by The Guilty Princess at 1:44 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

... of woe.

Been busy doing this and doing that, running here and running there. This won't stop until exams roll over. And that's in a month's time. I'm looking forward to it, yet I'm dreading it. I can only hope I do better than previously.

So many things are happening. Everytime I walk away it feels as if I'm walking away forever. I know its not true, and I know there's a whole future ahead... but I can't help that feeling. That walk alone, away from everything.

Oh well.

Time for pizza (from my roomie, Novi) and Big Bang Theory AND Gossip Girl (from my boyfriend)

hehehe. Gotta love 'em =D

Labels: NTU, Random Blabbering

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:12 AM

*I just haven't met you yet*

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Michael Buble =D

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Or maybe I have? =)

Labels: Music/Lyrics

posted by The Guilty Princess at 5:20 PM

Dreams that reek

Monday, October 12, 2009

I just remembered a crazy dream I had. I think it was due to me having multiple numbers of that person saved on my phone... Then i also think it's cause when pat was going through my contacts so that I can save them into my iPhone he asked whether I wanted to save the numbers and I didn't... And then I started thinking that I haven't really talked to this person for a long long time.. So the dream goes like this:

I'm back in Malaysia, back in FIS. Hanging put at the usual place and the group of them approaches me, with my ex in tow. And in this dream, he's still infatuated with me and hanging on a thread hoping that the feelings mutual- which its not btw! Then the group tells me that this one guy needs to talk to me n that he's waiting for me somewhere. Then my ex's good friend who helped us hook up last time pulls me aside telling me the gist of what I'll be facing - somehow it's always rosh. And ofer a shock of my life for what's about to happen. But I go meet the guy and we talk and the confessions start flowing and I do something I always do - I speak without thinking.. I say "i'm not gonna get together with you" which btw is the right thing to do in my dream cause I'm attached in my dream. It gets confusing and I tell this guy that I can't cause I'm in a relationship and also cause my ex is his good friend. Things get weird but I keep reminding myself that he's an awesome friend I can't afford to lose. He's helped me out soooooo much previously. So somehow we make things work and it's all good

Why am I telling the world this? Well cause I miss this guy. Talking to him etc.. I'm sure that our relationship will always be friendship that's why I dare post this...

Oh and I love my boyfriend way too much as well. Hahahah XD

Btw written with iPhone ;p

Labels: FIS, friends, Random Blabbering

posted by The Guilty Princess at 4:11 PM

Of the 11th of Oct

The day started late, or early... I don't know. The both of us only went to bed at 3plus am. We had a BBQ and that ended around 12 (plus cleaning up etc). Only took my shower at 2am and was sooo tired around 3am. So I slept first and hugged baby stitchieee! and was totally unaware of ANYTHING that happened until later on. He says that he hugged me and I was just sleeping away. Hehehe.

So I woke up around 11am, and brushed up etc. Around 12, attempted to wake him up... and failed! In the end, woke up around 12.30 and that was because I was poking him and annoying him. :P

Attempt FAILED! :(

When he was awake, I turned to look at my lappie and got a shock of my life.

Only 3 people online... How can that be!??! Even at 6am in the morning, I have at least 15 people online... Don't ask how I know that.
I ignored it for awhile, and soon enough it got back to normal.

Started to take photos and tweet them via my new love xD

I miss baby stitchieeee! *kisses* this pic is currently my wallpaper.

Yada yada, brush up etc etc and then we went to breakfast/lunch. It was about 1pm, but we had just woken up... so what's it?

We came back and started doing our things - him his tutorial, me my report. ;(

Then about 6.3opm we started cooking!!! I loveeeeeeeeee cooking, and its getting better every weekend. :)

Kurau fish. No more expensive fishes for us! hahaa

Tom Yam prepared by yours truly! :) This is just the beginning, when I threw in the spices and etc.

Chicken fillet meat to be cooked with the Tom Yam and the Kangkong to be cooked with fermented beancurd (fu yi) with garlic and chili.

Chop chili, chop garlic, chop chili!!!! He does this, because I can't stand the garlic smell on my fingers and also mostly because I'm scared of chili - I mean the feeling you'll get if you accidently rub your eyes or nose or mouth after chopping chili.

Hey sexy ;)
My man can cook, can YOURS!???!

The sauce for the fish. Tomato, garlic and chili.

its done its done its DONE!

Tom yam with loads of mushroom, tomato and chicken.

Delicious in the making!!!

And we're...

DONE!!!

Dinner for 5 is served. And everything was wiped clean! =D

After this scrumptious dinner prepared by the boyfriend and yours truly, we cleaned up with the help of the Spectrum Monkeys and YinChau and then we headed back to NTU.

I did my report and called it a day after a chat session with the roommate. Wheeee!

Things are getting better - social life I mean. Work load is not decreasing, but I'm coping. Just gotta keep it up!!! =D *aim for better grades*

Labels: food, Our Story

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:01 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Let's just say that my boyfriend is better than YOURS!!! Look here. Like I really need to say anything else to show you how happy I am.

Many things to do. Handed in three, yeap, that's right THREE! (3) assignments on Monday. Had a presentation on Tuesday - and then decided to give myself a well deserved break; I slacked. Today classes that left me... *blur*... and I'm studying for my quiz tomorrow. TWO back to back. One's an Excel test another is MCQ. die die dieeee! Its back to back, from 7pm to 9pm.. or 9.15pm. Something like that. KANTOI! And I haven't even done Friday's tutorial. *shoot me*

Looking forward to the weekend. A break - but still busy busy bee. Will be catching up with work and tutorials. Oh I must!!! Must not be lazy to carry books.

Anyway just a little destressing. Back to studying. Boo! Stupid boy's at some game testing thing :( My entertainment for the hour is gone *sobs* I need to catch up on OTH and GG. Argghhh. But it doesn't matter. I can have a marathon in December xD

Off off offfff!

Labels: NTU, Our Story, Random Blabbering

posted by The Guilty Princess at 8:32 PM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

I just don't have to look and everything's settled.

The past is the past right? But why does so many things seem so similar!?!?! I want new routines, I want new this and thats. I want things to be different - not the same.

posted by The Guilty Princess at 1:53 PM

I couldn't be happier

Monday, October 05, 2009

Patrick has this awesome DSLR. A Canon 5D and his lenses were with his sister, so he was left with I-don't-know-what-lens, and he was taking photos of my watch. The pictures on the left are those that were taken normally, and the clear picture of the watch is the one where he inverted the lens and shot through it, creating a "macro lens". Pretty cool stuff. I love the effect it gave - the macro ones. The Perlini Silver bracelet is my birthday present from him :) and it has a charm which is the same shape as the necklace in the photo. The necklace was a gift from my parents during CNY this year.

My boyfriend is an amazing photographer!!!

We woke up quite late and went to have brunch. The individial photos of me are at the Prata Shop, and the ones of him are at the NUS bus stop. The ones of us together are at the bus stop.

We were going to NUS for the Malaysian Sports Day - Woolympics. Thank baby for going there to support me :)

My boyfriend is beyond amazing! I've always got support and honesty from him :)

After NUS we went for a swim and whilst swimming decided that we want to cook dinner. So after our swim, we went out to get groceries and then we cooked...

Kurau fish fillet cooked with soya sauce, garlic and chili. Amazing stuff btw!

Sweet potato leaves cooked with fermented beancurd "fu yi", garlic and chili. Not overcooked so it was soooo good! And *surprise surprise* Jun Yen ate it!!!

Mah Ling pork stew with potatoes. This is a cheat dish because all we did was add potatoes and heat it up. But still awesome nonetheless.

Patrick cooked the vegetables and fish. I loveeee food!

My boyfriend is an amazingggggg cook!!!

After dinner, we cleaned the kitchen and wanted to head back to NTU. I was playing around with his camera and here are the cutest pictures you can ever find of him. :P because I took them, and because he was just in the mood to act cute... correction: he doesn't need to act cute. HE IS CUTE! ;) And my Baby Stitchieee is sooooo cute.

My boyfriend is wayyyyy superrrr duperrrrr cute!

So that's our amazing 4th October 2009.

I love you soooo much!

[baby, worth the wait? "I waited the whole night for THIS!??!" *tsktsk* patience my dearrr!]

Labels: food, Happiness, Our Story

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:10 PM

Bliss!

My dreams are coming true!!!

I don't know if I've ever posted it here before, but I remember posting it somewhere that my dream boyfriend/husband needs to know how to cook! You see, I've grown up loving food. All kinds, types. The variety! My dad's an awesome cook! And because I've grown up loving food, I've picked the habit of cooking. I wouldn't call it habit, I'd call it SKILLS! :P

My dad's such a good cook that when I was younger, I was always worried about getting a guy who can live up to my dad's cooking. Because I've got high expectations for food!!! And since I was single for God knows how long, I decided that I might as well cook for myself. Pure satisfaction. So I dropped the baking and picked up the cooking. Heck, I still bake - but its not as fun as cooking. Cooking just has more experiments etc etc etc.

ANYWAY!!! The point is, when I was younger I was always thinking about how my husband is gonna feed me. I won't say I'm picky because I'm not. I just need good food that's all. And when its food - you know I'll be 100% honest.

So today was tiring! uh huh!!! woke up at 7.30am, went back to sleep, woke up at 9.30am... went back to sleep, woke up at 11.30 am and went back to sleep till about 12.30pm. Got ready and headed to NUS. Captain's Ball - close match and I managed to block a very very very nice ball! Whee! *temporary high* After the game, headed back and went for a nice swim!!! xD *happiness overloads*

Whilst swimming we decided to cook dinner. *nyum nyum* And this is when I realized I fell in love with the right ~~boy~~man. He cooks awesomeeeee!

pics later!!

I love you baby!!!

Labels: food, Happiness, Our Story

posted by The Guilty Princess at 1:41 AM

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Let's forgive.

Powerful stuff that makes my heart tie in knots and makes me uneasy... hence tearing me up. Been doing a lot of that lately. I hate watching this video, it gets to me everytime... and I'll start the waterworks not just because of the video.

Sometimes we don't realize how much we hurt the ones we love, and sometimes they don't realize how much they've hurt us. But when we do, when I do, I feel uneasy and the guilt takes over and I can't stop thinking about it for days until we talk and settle it.

Its really taking its toll on me.

(I really ought to stop watching this video)

"When deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive. Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future."
- Mary Karen Read.

Labels: Videos

posted by The Guilty Princess at 7:25 PM

smart bum here went for a nice nice swim.

Whole pool to myself, very cold water, very windy...

smart bum here didn't realize that she was feverish so she went to swim in that big pool with cold water.... smart bum here needs more sleep.

I need some proper rest... :S maybe you are right after all....

*sigh*

wish I'd get a reply...

posted by The Guilty Princess at 6:30 PM

no title just thoughts

Don't take me for granted. I've no idea why I see my name there. I said I'd help, but I didn't say for that, I said for something else. ARGH!

Just because I'm small, young, EASY, it does not mean you take advantage of what I say. Enough is enough. I feel like bailing.

Things these days are just so... blah! I feel like something's bad gonna happen.

I just don't know. Maybe its because of all the assignments due, the quizzes coming up... I just don't have the mood to be fake and happy. I just wanna escape this place... run away alone. Hide in my shell... I hate the way things are with me now.

Friends come and go, boyfriends come and go, family they say don't come and go... but its all lies. Whatever people say are lies. I feel super bad about so many things. I just can't get over them. Whether or not things are changing... I wanna know.

Leave me to be.

Swimming my troubles away later.

posted by The Guilty Princess at 3:49 PM

Back in Sg. kinda done with company law.

Sleepy and moody and dont wanna look at company law again!!! *grrr*

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:46 PM

Thursday, October 01, 2009

"90 people get the swine flu and everybody wants to wear mask..A million people have AIDS and no one wants to wear a condom" - Michael Tan Kim Seng.

A random chat with who else... (don't say this is copyright because it isn't!)

Him: i got bing pei mooncake
Me: What's bing pei?
Him: the skin like frozen cum

*smacks forehead* *bangs forehead on wall HARD!*

Labels: Funnies

posted by The Guilty Princess at 10:27 PM

Daddy was admitted into the hospital yesterday so that he can go for an angiogram this morning. He's been having chest pains and the doctor thought it could be due to a blockage in one of his main heart vessels. He's had angioplasty before. So I stayed overnight at the hospital with mummy. Slept early and woke up early. Angiogram showed no signs of anything serious. A little narrowing of the vessels but nothing serious. The lumen are still big and can sustain - with a good diet and healthy exercise. If I don't do it for myself, I'm going to do it for my dad and as a reminder to myself for what can happen in the future. So here's to living a healthier lifestyle - yes baby, jogging/gym by hook or by crook ;)

All's well so I will be heading back to Singapore on Saturday.

Will be running about. Moving things into my room, passing things to John. Oh gosh, I'm gonna be so worn out. So tired. And I must must must finish my assignment by tonight. I want to get it over and done with. I'm so sick of company law. Anyway, main point is that I'm going back on Saturday.

Reminder to self:
1. get key and head to NTU
2. move things into room, remember to bring shoes back to John's
3. go back to Spectrum and pass to John things
4. stayover at spectrum
5. Sunday morning- NUS MSL sports day

KANTOI! That's why I need to finish my assignment ASAP!

*rawrrr!*

Putting back a little bit of faith that I had lost...

About recess week; its been up and down. Up because of certain events. Down because of certain events. Ermmm, not really giving away much now am I?

Anyway its been rough and I've been angry/annoyed quite a lot. But there were certain moments with the family that just made everything better. Of course, having a certain boyfriend to talk to about things helped a LOT. And I'm sorry for constantly dumping so much on you baby. You don't really need to listen to it. I know you say that its what you should do, but don't make it an obligation, please! I love you dear. So very much.

Time to enjoy the last few days with the family and time to finish the darn assignment already. *grrr*

AAR on 10th Oct... *shoot meeeeeeee* I wanna go, but but but.... BUT!!! *arghhh*

Labels: Family, NTU, Our Story, Random Blabbering

posted by The Guilty Princess at 5:56 PM

The little things are taking me over

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Breakfast at 7.30am.

Office till 8.30am.

Stuck in traffic till 9.45am, was heading to HELP to drop off the brat.

Thought I saw someone.

Left to the hospital and was there till 12noon.

I hate traffic.

posted by The Guilty Princess at 12:35 PM